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JOB POTTING I
EXECUTED WITH NEATNESS AND DESPATCH 4
At this Office.
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UY TRAVELING COMPANION, t
Mr Wflft a failnm ^
I friends fiad guaranteed it* success; but n
| the Hanging Committee and the Pre* are M
not composed of one's partial friend*.?
L The Hanging Committee thrust me into *
ft the darkest corner of the octagon-room, ^
and the pwna ignored my existence?ex- n
Qp cepting in one instance, when my critic jr
f dismissed me in a quarter of a line as a y,
** pt esumptuous dauber." I was stunned p
with the blow, for I had counted so ae- ?
curely on the ?200 at which my grand
t historical painting was dog<heap?not to
i 1 speak of the deathless fame which it was ?
to create for me?that I felt like a mere a
I . wreck when my hopes wore flung to the *
ground, and the untested cup dashed from y,
my lips. I took to my bed and was serioualy
ill. The doctor bled me till I tain- ,r
ted, and then said, that he had saved me Q,
from a brain-fever. That might be, but p,
he veiy nearly threw me into a consumption,
only that 1 had a deep chest and a n
good digestion. Pneumonic expansion
and active chyle saved me from an early w
tomb, yet I was too unhappy to be grate- T,
M' * ^ t?
Hot why (Hd my picture (ail! Surely n
it pumsmod all the elements of succdb! p;
It waa grandly historical in subject, original
treatment, pgfe in coloring; what, then, in ?
was wanting) This old warrior's head, C]
of true finoa type had all the Majesty of ?
Michael Angelo; that younp figure, all t(
m * the radiant grace of Correggto; no Rem d
brandt showed more severe dignity than b
yon burnt umber monk in the corner; and d
ncan never excelled me loveliness or Wis ?
cobalt virgin in the foreground. Why 0|
did it not succeed t The subject, too? ai
the u Finding of the Body of Harold by n
Torch-light"?was sacred to all English t,
hearts; and being conceived in an entire- fc
lyribw original manner, it was redeemed t<
from the charge of triteness and wearisome- tl
nets. The composition was pyramidal, p
the appex being a torch borne aloft for the d
'* high light," and the vase showing some u
. very novel effects of herbage and armor. K
^ ; JBut it failed. All my skill, all my hope b
I my careless endeavor, my burning visions, *
all-?all bad fiuled ; and I was only a poor, ?,
J' ? hftftUrvtd painter, in Great How Land- a
street, jyhoee landlady was daily abating h
i 1 fa her respect and the butcher daily aba- ?
'tang in hit punctuality ; whoso garments
<t wera getting threadbare, and hit dinners ti
hypothetical and whose day-dreams of 0
fame and fortune had faded into tho dull r
; . gray of penury and diuappoinUnent. 1 fa
brokeu-hfiarted, ill, hungry; to I ao- li
k Jbui u h",' feOTd' * ** '
1 VL&eurar in to t? *" ? i
*0 hi* house Car the ChmUna* uC!}^*J\
. He had * plnaaant place in the midat ot
* eoaa iaea wotha, the biasing chimneys of h
-whidi, he aerated me, would afford aotae h
udtauiaite studies of " light" effects. d
, By?'-mistake, I went by the express I
* vain, and eo wee thrown into the society ?
dfa'lady whoae poaition would hare ten- a
dercd anv aennaintaaoA with h?r inrtnnsai- r
We, excepting under nodi dbsncc ooodi"tkm*
m the prawni; and whose history,
an I learned it afterward, led u?e to reflect
t mush on the difference between the realiv
- ij and the (Miming of life.
"She moved my envy. Yee?besejneen,
low, tinartistic, degrading aa la this paa ion,
I felt k me up like a ?ah ha my
. breast when I saw that feeble WoMefc.?
She was splendidly dressed?wrapped in
Awn of the most costly kind, trailing behfart:
her velvets and laoe worth a ootift*
flMfdbwry. She was attended by obsedSEufe
menials; surrounded by luxuries;
hp compartment sfthe carriage was a
perfect paho# in all the WQlln which
( fcjrss poselbls to eolleet in so small a sums;
and it teemed ee though "Cloafofc's
. cup" would hevs tan no Impracticable
* , draught flip ler. ffee gate KM mete
hm j
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nm/ lUfl BUVIVMM 0?71U*Miy, euan Mil
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She waaljffed into the carriage careftl
\y ; careflilty ewathM in her splendid Ail
and lust roue velvet?; rod pieced gen til
Wkfi A wounded bird, in her qgjjfcin Heat
down. Bet she moved languidly, Mi
fretftilly thrust aside her servants' ban
hands, indtflfefenl to her ooasfceta, and ai
noyed by her blessing*. r 1 looked into>
face: ft'was a strange toft, wfcieh ha
once been beautiful; bai ff-bealth, an
care, and grief, bad marked it now wit
deep lines, and colored it witfcfUnnatqii
tints. Tears had washed oat the row
from her cheeks, and set large purple ring
about her eyes; the month was hard an
pinched, f^ltthe eyelids ewolen; while th
:roesed wrinkles on her brow told thesam
ale of grief grown petulant, and of pai
pown soured, as the thin lip, quiverm
tod quern lows, and tne nervous hand, nei
W still and never strong. '
The train bell rang, the whistle sound
*1, the lady's nrnj|ap stood bareheadeind
eourtesying to (he ground, and tb
apid rash of the iron giant bore off th
ligh-born dame and the starveling paint
ir in strange companionship. Unquie
md unresting?now shifting her place?
low letting down the glass for the col*
tir to blow foil upon her withered face
hen drawing it up, and chafing her hand
md feet by the warm apparatus conceale*
n lief thaujfc-pitd, while shivering as i
n an ague-fit?sighing deeply?lost ii
hought?wildly looking out and arounc
or distraction?she soon made me asl
nysolf whether my envy of her was a*
rue as deep sympathy and pity wouk
isve been.
w But her wealth?her wealth !" 1
hought. u True, she may suffer, but hos
[loriously she is solaced t She may weep
ut the angels of social life wipe off hei
sars with perfumed linen, gold embroid
red; she may grieve but her griof mnkei
er joys so much the more blissful. Ah
he is to be envied after all!?envied,whik
, a very beggar, might well scorn my
lace now r
Something of this might have been in
ly face, as I offered my sick companion
>me small attention- ?I forget what?
atherincr ud one of her luxurious
r Arranging her cushion*. She seemed
Imost to read my thoughts as her eyes
*ted on my melancholy face; and sayig
abruptly : M 1 fear you are unhappy,
oung manshe settled herself in her
lace like a person prepared tojhten to a
leasant tale.
"I am unfortunate, madam," I answered.
" Unfortunate I" said she impatiently.
What 1 with youth and health can you
ill yourmtf unfortunate! When the
bole world lies untried before you, and
ou still live in the golden atmosphere of
ope, can you pamper yourself with aentilental
sorrows ( Fie upon you?fie upo
you! What are your sorrows cornered
with mine!"
I am ignorant of yours, Madam," I said
wpectfully; " but I know my own; and,
nowing them, I can speak of their weight
nd bitterness. By your very position,
t>u cannot undergo the same kind of disess
as that overwhelming me at this
Kxnent: you may have evils in your
sth of life, but they cannot equal mine."
'Can any thing eqnal the evils of ruin1'health
and a desolated hearth f" she
ried, still in the same impatient manner.
Can the worst griefs of wayward youth
qual the bitterness of that cup which you
rink at such a time of life as forbids all
ope of after-assuagement f Can the first
reappointment of a strong heart rank
ith the terrible desolation of a wrecked
Id age! You think because you see
bout me the eridencea of wealth, that I
mat be happy. Young man, I tell you
uly, I would gladly give up every farlh g
of my prinoety fortune, and be reduced
> the extreme of want, to bring bank from
lie grave the dear onea lying there, or
our into my veins one drop of the tanning
blood of health and energy which
sed to make life a long play hour of de
ght Once, no child in the fields, no
ird in the aky, was more blessed than I;
nd what am I now I?a sickly, lonely old
roman, whose nerves are shattered sod
rhose heart is broken, without hope or
sppiness on earth I Even death haspassd
me by in forgetfulneas and aoorn r
Her voice betrayed the truth of her erneion.
Still, with an aooeat of bitteraeM
nd complaint, rather than of aimple sorow,
it waa the voice ofooe fighting against
ier late, more than oi one suffering acuta
v and in deapair ; it was petulant rather
ban melancholy; angry rather than griev g;
showing that her triala bad hardend,
not softened her u?2!t>
44 listen to me," she then said, laying
er h^nd on my arm, " and oerhaps my
istory may reconcile yon to the ehildish
apvpon iran vwh t ? u ?.
?, under which you ire laboring. Yoe
re young end strong, end cen bear an j
mount of pain ea yet: writ until yov
eerii my age, and then you will know
h^rue meaning of the word despair 1?
am rieh, as you may aee," the continued
Minting to her mtrounding*: Mhi truth
o rich that I take no neoount either of aaj
aootne of my expenditure. I hare aer?
mown Mr under any other form. I ban
' n tariaana llial aft Maa Wa Jkan! J tV.
pauftcetk* of 3bdn vhick wj
wold purabaM, o^ obBld to ealfctlateUM
wt of i rf?H mafcHaking. 1 can ftittw
Iy real be In* hMntf ptftvty. I Me 0m
ill people do not Ht? in in* tetne aUle a
myeeH; bat I ?anal iWlliiHialld Ul/i Hi
from mmtilHr-, italwabi-Htb to bat
be from tkatt own dbtflPtHOMi. I tel
you, Imam*folly HMUHtlhmfam of pot
irty; and y<* UMpk tkb mam ttdu m
ktpwf perbapa f the added; fiaafph
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*y rivb," I replied. M Su.Te.ii.y flow fteuT
?d strain of |?overty, j^Ja no marvel if T pit
an undue raltle on. plenty."
il* " Yet aee what it does forme 1" cont
rs ued my companion. M Does it give
T, back my nwntfd, my brave boys, i
of beautiM gMl Does it give rest to t
id weaay heart, or relief to thie aching hea
iy Does H soothe my mind or heal toy bod
a- No I It but oppreuses me, like a hea
w robe thrown round weakened limbs : it
id even an additional misfortune, for if I w<
d poor, I should bo obliged to think of ol
h er things besides myself and my woes;
pt and tho very mental exertion necessary
W sustain my position would lighten my m
p eries. I have seen my daughter wasti
d year by year and day by day, under t
warm sky of the south?under tho wai
e care of love! Neither climate nor affi
n tion could save Vit>r ?* ??-" ?
_ ? , m m V*V? J VIIVIIl ?f
g made?the beat advice procured?the 1
r- teat panacea adopted ; but to no effect.Her
life was prolonged, certainly ; buttl
I- simply means, that she was three yei
i in dying, instead of throe months. 8
e waa a gloriously lovely creature, like a fi
e saint for beauty and purity?quite i
r ideal thing, with her golden hair and lar]
t blue eyes! She was my only girl?n
- youngest, my darling, my best treasun
I My first real sorrow?now ea
?, ago?was wben I saw her laid, a on h
twenty-first birth day, in the Ijjuglisli b
1 rial ground at Madeira. It is on the grav
f stone that she died of consumption : wou
i that it had been added?ana her noth
1 of grief I From the day of her dcatK',-ii
c happiness left mo !" ^
? Here the poor lady paussd and l>uri<
1 her face in her hands. The first sorrn
was evidently also the keenest; and I f?
1 my eyelids moist as I watched tliia? ou
' pouring of the mother's anguish. Aft
, all, here waa grief beyond the power
r wealth to assuage; here was a sorrow dec]
er than anv mere wordlv disarm nfin
? 441 had two sons," alio wont on to sa;
! after a short time?"only two. The
! were fine young men, gifted and ham
' Rome. In fact, all my children were a
lowed to be very models of beauty. Or
> entered the army, tho other the navy.>
The eld oat went With his regiment to tli
Cape, where he married a woman of loi
family?an infamous creature of no blood
though ahe was decently conducted for
low born thing an ahe wan. She wan we
spoken of by those who knew her; bi
what could she be with a butcher for '
grandfather 1 However, my poor infatui
ted son loved her to the last. She wi
very pretty, I have heard?young an
timid; but being of such fearfully lo
origin, of course she could not be rccogn
tea by my husband or myself! WcTo
had* nV -w ?r"-!'L,?'?,v'
he would separate himself from her ; bi
the poor boy was perfectly mad, and I
preferred this low-born wife to bin mot!
er and fkther. They had a Utile baby,wli
was sent over to me when tho wife die
?for, thank God ! she did die In a fb
years' time. My son was restored to 01
love, and he tcmAmL our forgiveness
but we never saifllfPfigain. He took
fever of the countW, and was a corpse i
a few hoots. My second boy- was i
the navy?a fine, high-spirited fellow,wh
seemed to set all the accidents of life r
defiance. I could not believo in an
harm comincr to Aim. He was so *?ron<
so healthy, so beautiful, so bright: li
might have been immortal, for all the cl<
ments of decay that showed themselves i
him. Yet this glorious young hero wi
drowned?wrecked off a coral-reef, an
flung like a weed on the waters. He lo
his own life in trying to save that of
common sailor?a piece of pure gold ba
tered for the foulest clay I 'Two years a
ter this, my husband died of typhus feve
and I had a nervous attack, from whic
I have never recovered. And now, whi
do you say to this history of mine! F<
fifteen years, I have never l?een free froi
sorrow. No sooner did one grow so f
miliar to me, that I ceased to tremble i
its hideousnesa, than another, stilt moi
terrible, came to overwhelm me in fro
> misery for fifteen years, my heart has ne
; erknown an boar's peace; and to tl
I end of life, I shall be a desolate, miserabl
i broken-hearted woman. Can you unde
stand, bow, the valueoem of my nches,ar
how desolate my splendid house mu
seem to me. They Irove been given n
' for no useful purpose here or hereaftei
> they encumber roe, and do no good I
' others. Who is to have them when
die f Hospitals and schools t I hate U
medical prcl^sioa, Kid I air: r??*jnat tl
education of the poor. 1 think it the gre
> evil of the day, and I would not leave
' penny of mine to such a radical wrong.Wbat
is to become of my wealth?!"
"YCUT jr*iKUon," I itermpted, hastily
' "the child of the officer."
'The old woman1* face gradually s<
tened. "Ahi ho is a lovely boy," she sai
but I don't love him?no I doot," she r
pea ted, vehemently. u If 1 set my hea
on him, he will die or turn out ill: tal
to the low way* of his wretched mother,
die some horrible death. I steel my hea
against hbn, and shut him out from n
calculations of the future, lie is a ewe
r boy: hrtereeting, affectionate, lovely; b
t 1 wffl not allow myself to love him, and
? don't alhrw him,to love me! But you oug
I toeea him. Hia hair is like my on
i daughter's?long, glossy, golden hai
I ahdmi eysa are lagga wad blue, and t
laaheArnrl <m.hie cheek like henry fri
t gm, lie ie toe pale mkI tod thin j
a look* todly delicate; tdt trie trreteh
mother #?a a delicate little crejtfhifc, nod
o haa dot/Weee inherited * world of diaea
11 and p60t Mood from her. 1 wUh he *
hare though, for jdti to aee: but I ke
a him <t itfflool, for when m m mud) wi
r, me,1 feel rayaelf beginning to be hit
asted Ifc himand do ndt Hiah to lc
hint?I do hoi With io remember bt|p
M
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the all! "With that dS5?t* fVsmo ami nor- I
ace voaa temperament,he mutt die; and why
should I prepare fresh sorrow for myself,
by taking him into my heart, only to have
me him plucked out ngain by death?"
my As this was said with the most uasion
his ate vehemence of manner, as if she were j
d f defending herself against wine unjust
jrf charge. I said something in the way of
,vy remonstrance. Gently and respectfully
; is btit firmly, I spoke of the necessity for <
ire each soul to spiritualize its aspirations <
th- and raise itself from the trammels of earth; i
? and in speaking thus to her, 1 felt my own 1
to burden lighten off my heart, and I ae- 1
is- knowledged that I had been both foolish
ng and sinful in allowing first disap(*oint- 1
he ment to shadow all the sunlight of my 1
rm existence. 1 am not naturally of a des- '
ic- ponding disposition, and nothing l?ut a ' '
as blow as severe as the non-success of uiy i t
la- "Finding the Body of Harold by Torch- |
? light" could have affected to the extent of I s
lis mental prostration, as that tinder which I 1
irs I was now laboring. But this was very 1
ho hard to boar! My companion listened 1
tir to me with a kind of blank surprise, evi- r
?n dently unaccustomed to honesty of truth; I
go but she bore my remarks patiently, and s
ly when I had ended, she even thanked me <
e ! for my advice. I r
m "And now, tell me the cause of your t
cr melancholy face ?" she asked, as we were i 1
u- nenring Birmingham. " Your story j t
e- cannot l?e very long, and I shall have just \
Id enough time to hear it."
'& I smiled at her authoritative tone, and i
^y said quietly: I am an artist, madam, and c
I had counted much on the success of I n
xl my first historical painting. If has failed, \
w and 1 am l>otli penniless and infamous. I<
ilt I am tho "presumptuous danbci" of the y
it- critics?despised by tho creditors?enter
pliatically a failure throughout. t
of "Pshawl" cried tlto ladv, impatiently ; t
|t- "and what is that for a gncf? a day's dis- o
it. appointment which a day's labor can re- t
y, pair! To mc, your trouble seem < >f no I
iv more worth than a child's tears when lie ] c
J- has broken his newest t6yl Here is ltir- ! h
1- mingham, and I must bid you farewell,
ic Perhaps you will open the door for me f J
? Good-morning: you have made my jour- n
le ny pleasant, and relieved my Ennui. I s
* shall be happy to .see you in town, and to 1
I; help you forward in your career."
a Aud with these worila, said in a strange, ii
11 indifferent, matter-of-fact tone, as of one v
it accustomed to all the polite offers of good "
W society, which mean' nothing tangible, li
i- ahe will lifted from the carriage by a train t
is of servants, and borne off tho platform. c
d I looked at the card which she placed c
iv iu my baud, and read the address of "Mrs.
i- Anion, IJelgrave-srjuare." i
r- I found my l'rieud waiting fur mc; and ?.
"** p* ".* , wan seated Ucl'vro u \
it blazing fire in a itutguuiccui uiuwmg-rooin,
ic surrouudcel with every comfort that hoa- .1
i- pitality could offer, or luxury invent. 1
i0 "Hero, at least, is happiness," I thought, c
d aa T saw the famillv assemble in the draw- f
w ing room before dinner. "Here are beau- s
ir ty, youth, wealth, jxwition?all that i f
i; makes life valuable. What concealed t
a skeleton can there be in this house to I
n frighten away one grace of existence? s
n None?none! They must be happy; t
o and, oh! what a contrast to that poor la- t
it dy I met with to-day ; and what a pain- fi
y ful contrast to myself!" ri
j, And all my former melancholy returned y
e like a heavy cloud upon my brow; and I u
s- felt thnt I stood like some sad ghost in a I
n fairy-land of lieauty, so utterly out of c
is place was iny gl xmi in tho midst of all \
id this gayety and splendor. c
it One daughter attracted my attention c
a more than the rest. She was tho eldest, i
r- a beautiful girl of about twenty-three, or \
f- she might have been even a few years ol- c
r, der. Iler face was quite of the Spanish i
h style?dnrk, expressive, nnd tender; and n
it her manner* were the softest and most l>c- I
>r witching I had ever seen. She was pe- i a
? .<>??:?? ?'! * *
vuuiuiy niiriiciive to itn Hnisi, irom lli(! c
?- exceeding beauty of feature, as well as j
it from the depth of expression which distill- s
re guialied hor. I secretly sketched lier por- t
>h trait on my thumb-nail, and in mind Ide- c
r- terminedftp make her the model for my i
te next grand4Rterapt at historical oonuxr- i
e, virion?"the *Hcturn of Columbus." Shes^l
r- was to bo tl?e Spanish Queen; ntick I lr
id thought of myself as Ferdinand; for I was j *
at not unlike a Spaniard in appearance, and i
le I was almost as brown. U
r; I remained with my friend a fortnight, ! \
to studying the midnight effects of the iron- 1 1
I foundries, and cultivating the aquaintance , t
te of Julia. In these two congenial oceupa- i
te tion, die time passed like lightning, and j 1
at I woke as from a pleasant dream, to the t
%JI Mil] liMJl Hint Illy V1N11 W(18
? expected to bo brought to a closo. I had ;
l>een asked, I remembered, for a week,
f! and I had doubled my furlough. I hinted
at breakfast, that I wan afraid I must
>f- leave my kind friends to-morrow, a gen- | ,
d; era! regret waa expreaaed, bait no one
<& naked me to atay longer; ?o the die was
rt unhappily cast.
lie Julia was melancholy. I could not
or bat observe it; and I confess that the ol>- f
kit aervation caused me more pleasure than <
?y pain. Could it be sorrow at n?y depar- <
iet turef We had been daily, almost hourly, <
ut companions for fourteen days, and the t
i I surmise was not unreasonable. Rhe had
ht always shown me particular kindness, and
rn she could not but hare seen my marked
ir; pgjferenoe for her. My lieart t?at wildly i
h? ifl 1 rrft'i/wi am Kav nsln /tliMtlr :<ml rl?iw\TMirt?
in- eyelid; for though she had been always still
he and gentle, I had never eeen?certainly I
ed had never noticed?such evident traces
he of sorrow, as I saw in her face to-day.?
Me Oh, if tt were for me, how I would bless
'as each pang which pained that beiRitiful
wp heart f-?how I would cherish the tears
iffc that fell as if they had been priceless riiawoods
from the nine!?how I would joy in
her grief afld Hte in bet despair 1 It
I might bf that out of ftil would comic
good. and from the deep desolation of illy
unsold 11 Body" might nriRC the heavenly uc<
blessedness of such love as this! I was wL
intoxicated with my hopes; and was on coi
the point of making a public idiot of my- ly
self, but happily some slight rernnent of ?<
common sense was left inc. However, Jul
impatient to learn my fate, I drew Julia aw
aside; and, placing myself nt her feet, wit
while she was entnroned on a luxurious hot
ottoman, I pretended, that I must con- sou
eludo the series of lectures on arts, and '
iho best methods of coloring, on which I Koj
lind been employed with her ever since to i
my visit. yoi
"You seem unhappy to-day, Miss Reay," sett
I said, abruptly, with my voice trembling 1
like a girl's. line
She raised her large eyas languidly.? rati
'Unhappy? uo, Iaui never unhappy," fool
die said quietly. gloi
Her voice never sounded so silvery in (
iweet, so pure and harmonious. It feit win
ike music on the air. my
" I have, then, been too much blinded bus
jy excess of beauty to have been able to getl
iec correctly," I answered. "To me you Uet
lave appeared always calm, but never I et
ad ; but to-day there is a palpable weight nev
if sorrow on you, which a child might surj
cad. It is in your voice, and on your woi
lyelids, and round your lips, it is on you Fle<
ike the moss on the young voso?beau- sect
ifying while vailing the dazzling glory bre
villi in." wer
"Ah! you speak far too poetically for the
ne," said Julia, smiling, "If you will getl
onie down to iny level for a little while, plei
md will talk to me rationally, I will tell I
ou my history. I will tell it you as a stre
esson for yourself, which I think will do hun
ou good."." one
The cold chill that went to my soul! ed <
Ier history! It was no diary of facts geir
lint I wanted to hear, but only a register sens
>f feelings in which I should hiul myself geni
he only jwunt w hereto the index was set. ful
listory ! what events deserving that name a Ik
ould Iiave troubled the smooth waters of ncci
ier lite f ordi
I was silent, for I was disturbedbut me
ulia did not notice either my embarrass- was
nont or my silence, and began, in her low, nfHi
oft voice, to open one of the saddest chap- spfr
ers of life which I had ever heard. soft*
"You do not know that I ain going enin
:ito a convent f" she said ; then, without whil
raiting for an answer, she contiuued:? we i
This is the last month of my worldly still
ife. In four weeks I shall have put on sym
he white rohc of the novitiate, and in due our!
ourse I trust to bo dead forever to this in t
sarthly life." sooi
A heavy, thick, choking sensation in otln
ny throat, and a bunting pain within my crct
yeballs, warned mo to keep silence. My and
'oieo would have belmj inc. mil
" vriieu i ?ua seventeen,w continued nlw
fulia, 441 was engagoil to- my cousin.? sert
Are had been brought up together from witl
hildhood, and we loved each other per- ofc
ectly. You must not think, because I the
peak so eahnly now, that I hate not suf- tion
ercd in the past. It ia-onlv by the grace The
>f resignation and of religion, that I have her
ecu brought to my present condition of t?th?
piritual peace. I am now tivc-and- of i
wenty?next week I shall be six-aud- suit
wenty : that is just nine years since I was one
rst engaged to Laurence. lie was not P
ich enough, and indeed he was far too poo
oung, to marry, for he was only a year eflt
lder than myself; and if lie had had the |y, f
urgest possible amount of income, we witl
ould certainly not have married for three all ?.
rears. My lather never cordially approv- and
td of the engagement, though lie did not her.
ipposo it. Laurence was taken partner seel
nto a large concern here, and a heavy and
veight of business was iminediately laid wit
>11 him. Youthful as ho wus, lie was jtse
nade the solo and almost irresponsible the
igent in a house which counted its capital pav
?y millions, and through which gold now- paii
d like water. For some time, lie went fron
>n well?to a marvel, well. He was tliei
mnetual, vigilant, careful; butthe respon- I
ihilitv was too much for the noor luw ......
. _ I ' tuyi
he praises he received, the flattery and ohts
ibsc'iuiotisness which, for the first time thei
verc lavished on the friendless youth, the ies t
Vealth at his command, all turned his not
lead. For a long time we heard vague hut
umors of|irrejrular conduct; hut as he the
vas always the same good, affectionate, tliei
spectfifl, happy Laurence, when with us, hyi
sven my fatlier, who is so strict, and some- van
vhat suspicious, turned a deaf ear to them, reoe
was the earliest to notice a slight change, tere
irst in his face, and then in his manners, ion;
\t last the rumors ceased to be vague,and and
jecatne definite, business neglected ; fa- lool
al liahus visible, even in the early day; tiia
he frightful use of horrible words, which fror
?nee he would have tremb'ed to tis<4,; the friei
lights passed at tlio gaming table, and "IV
he days spent in the society of the worst m?
ncn on the turf?all these accusations No
vcro brought to my father by credible cert
witnesses; an<l, alas! they wero too true figf
x> ho refutod. My father?heaven anil and
lie holy saints bless his gray head !?kept sub
.hem from mo as long aa he could. He and
"orgave hirn again and again, and used his
jvery means that love and reason could ho
employ to bring him back into the way tha
>f right; but he could do nothing against sea:
the force of such fatal habits as tlxwe to to|
which iny poor Laurencehad now become pot
wedded. With ever}' good intention and 1
with much strong love for me burning hor
sadly amid the w reck of his virtues, he
yet would not refrain: the evil one had wh
overcome him ; he was his prey here and mo
hereafter. Ob, no?not hereafter ?n she onl
added, raising her hands anil eyea to tru
heaven, u if jaayer, if fasting, patient vig- kn
ils, incessant striving, may proQure him imi
pardon?not forever his prey I "Our en- An
gagement Was broken off; and this step, m\
necessary as it was, completed 10 ruin,? of
He died.....Mlfere a stjpng shudder shook Ip
her from head to foot, and I butf Base in mi
alarm. The next instant she wk calm, lig
?
e +.
"Now, you know my1 history," contin- th<
.1 she. " It is u tragedy of real life, oh
lich you will do well, young painter, to th<
npare with your own !" With a kind- soi
pressure of the hand, and a gentle smile wc
oh ! so sweet, so pure and heavenly !? loc
lia Reay left mc ; while I sat perfectly wc
ed?that is the only word I can use? act
h the revolution which she had made ati
h of her history and of her own grand ilit
il. dea
4 Come with 111c to my study," said Mr. im
ay, entering the room ; "I have a world col
talk to you about. You go to-morrow, vin
1 say. I am sorry fyr it; but I must
,le my business with you in time to day."
' followed him mechanically, for I was
lergoing a mental castigation which
lier disturked 1110. Indeed like a young __
I?as eager in self reproach as in selfrifieation?I
was so occupied inwardly
ailing myself hard names, that even
?n my host gave me a commission for
new picture, " The Return of Colum- 'on<
," at two hundred and tiftv pounds, to- F"
tier with an order to paint himself,Mrs. '
ly, ami half a dozen of their children, ^ $
nitres it with shame, that 1 received tlie a [!
i's like a leaden blpck, and felt neither 1
|>risc nor ioy?not though these few 110
ils chased mc from the gates of the* 'he
t?t, wliitlicr I was fast hastening, and 3*ef
ired me both position and the daily
ad. The words of that l>eautiful girl
c stil ringing in my ears, mixed up ^rith ^ai
bitterest self-accusations and theaetoiicr
shut out all other sound, however ,on
isant. Hut that was always my way.
went back to London, humbled and
nghthencd, having learnc<l more of * n
lan nature and the value of events, in h,ea
short fortnight, than I had ever dream- n,,:
?f before. The first lessons of youth t??1
r-rally come in hard shape. I had ^,0
e to feel that T had learned mine R'ia
tlv, and that I had cause to be thank- ac^
for the mildness of the teaching. From 9Ufl
?V, I l>eeame a man, judging more
irately of humanity than a year's to_?
nary exjierenec would have enabled WI*
to do. And the moral which 1 drew 'an
this : that under our most terrible 8Ur
ctions, we may always gain some
itual good, if we suffer them to be "*?
;ning and purifying, rather tlmn hard- act
g influences over us. And also, that
le we are suffering the most acutely, a*X)
may be sure that others are suffering
more acutely ; and if we would bid '?
ipathizc with them more than with 1
lelves?live out of our own selves, and aPI
he wide world around us?we would
11 be healed while striving to hcald ftC^
ors. Of this I am convinced ; the ^9- ^'e
of life, and of all its good, is in love; l)cr
while we preserve this, we can never n'r<
of cwiuftjlU Tlit owed trntcrn -will no
ays gusli out over the sandiest de- '88t
of our lives while we can love ; but y??
lout it?nay, not the merest weed of at t
omfort or of virtue would grow under mH
feet of angls. In this was the distinct- Wlt^
between Mrs. Arden and Julia Heay. dev
fine luiil linrilnniul liew Imorf suel
trials, and abut it up in itself; the her
;r had opened here to the purest love
nan and lovo of God; and the re- tnu
was to l>c seen in the despair of the 'ani
, and in the holy peaco of the other. hav
nil of these thoughts, I sought out my the
r lady, determined to do her real bon- 8',a
if I coilld. She received me very kind- casi
or I had taken care to. provide mysolf
i a sufficient introduction, so as to set
louhts of my social position at rest: 1
I knew how far this would go with phi)
We soon became fast friends. She the
ned to rest on nie much for sympathy exh
I comfort, and soon grew to regard me. va<:
h a sort of motherly fondness that of are
If brightened her life. I paid her all froi
attention whicli u devoted sou might yet
?humored her whims, soothed her qui
is ; but insensibly I led her mind out too
II itself?first in kindness to me, and of
i in love to her grandson. lad
asked for him just before tlie midsum- tru<
holidays, and with great difficulty 4
tined an invitat:on for him to spend sav
n with her. She resisted mp entreat- rah
itoutl v, hut at last was obliged to yield, cid<
me nor to my powers of jtereuasion; tha
to the holy truth of which I wus then py
advocate. The child came., and I was it i
re nlso to receive him. and <-. onfnww /?/vn
ny presence?which I saw, without 1
ity, had great influence?a fitting oon
ption. He was a pensive, clever, in- of ]
stinglktle fellow ; sensitive and affect- spe
ite, timid, gifted with wonderful powers, ha\
of great taauty, Thro was a shy affie
c in his eyes, which made me auie ly.
t he inherited much of his loveline** not
n his mother; and when we were great tun
nds, he showed me a small portrait of not
?or mamma;" and I saw at once the rob
?t striking likeness between the two, pec
human heart could withstand that boy, tab
anlv not my poor friend's. She yielded, con
iting desperately aganst m? and him, reel
i all the powers of love, which were her
dtting her, but yielding while she fought ner
i in a short time tho child had taken prf
proper place in her Affections which sid<
kept to the end of her life. And she, er,
t desolate mother, even she, with her \)\
rd soul and pet rified heart, was brought the
llie knowledge of peace by the glorious idh
rer of love. tha
Prosperous, famous, happy, blessed^ in cua
ne and hearth, this has become my Th
tlamontal orooH r\t lifo 4Via KaiU on aa?
ich all good, whj^er of art 4P1 of the
.rality, v. rested tm art e?j>eciall; for m?
ly by a tender, reverent spirit can the ha
e meaning of his vocatio# be made cai
nwn to the artist All the rest is mere in
itation of form, not insight into essence, km
a ?i.ru t t ? * -
HI n*u?> ' roci mm m. UU1 (ITS UM U! ,
self, and lore other*?the whole world m
man?more than myself I koow that all
ossess the secret ofhapriness; ay though th
r power* were stibdenly blasted m ?y en
htning, my wife and children laid in ah
m 9
s cold grave, and my happy home dialled
forever. For I would go out into
e thronged street*, and gather up the
rrows of others, to relieve them ; and I
>uld go out under the quiet aky, and
jk up to the Father'* throne ; and I
>uld pluck peace as green herbs from
tive benevolence and contemplative adoon.
Yes ; love can s?"e from the stery
of selfishness, and from the death of
spair ; but love alona. No other talis111
has the power; pride, self-sustaiument,
dness, pleasure, [nothing?but that diic
word of Life which is life's soul !
iflrrtrft 3lrtirlfs.
The Homestead Bill.
<
Ibis important measure which lias po
g occupied the attention of Congress,
seil the House of Representatives on
xlnesday last, by a vote af 107 to 60.
grant* to any person who isthe head of
iiuily the right to locate, free of cost,
0 acres of public land provided he owns
other land, and will actually settle upon
1 land he enters and remain thereon five
irs.
The effect of this measure will be to
ntlv depreciate the value of Bodnty
ad Warrants already issued.
The following are the leading proviss:
.
4 Sec. 1. That any person who is the
id of a family Und a citizen of the
ited States, or any person who is the
d of a family, and had l?ecome n
Een prior to the first of January, eiglii
hundred and fifty-two, as required by
naturalization law of the United States
11, from and after the passing of'this
, bo entitled to enter, free of cost one
irter section of vacant and unapproatiapublic
landa,or a quantity equal thereto
be located in a body in conformity
h the legal subdivisions of the public
ds, and aftrcr the same shall have been
veyeu.
' Sec. 2. And bt it fit rthsr enacted, That
person applying for the benefit of this ,
shall, upon application to the register
he land office in which he or she is
ut to make such entry, make affidavit
>re the said register that lie or she is
head of & family, and is not the nWner
my estate in land at the time of' such
>]ication, and has not disposed of
Ate iu land to obtain the benefits of this
, and upon making the affidavitKritli
register, lie or she shall thereupon bo
nilttcd to enter the qwxilhj of land
;ady speceffed. Provided/ however,
certifiMtothaU be given or patent
ied thereW\fctfl the expiration of five
irs from the date of such entry ; ana if,
lie expiration of such time, the person
kinor sinnli ontrv r>r if !?.? i? J??.l 1.1
o v. ? UU iO UV?U, 1110
ow, or in case of Ler death, his heirs or
isee ; or, in case of a widow making
h entry, licr heirs or devisee, in case of
death, shall prove by two credible
losses tlint he, she, or they7 have eonicd
to Tcside upon and cultivated said
3, and still reside upon the same, and
'e not nliertat?id the same or any part
roof, then in such case, he, she, or they
II be entitled to a patent, as in oth'er
r provided for by law.
Woman at Home.
i'he subjoined article from the Philad&a
Bulletin, commends itself, as well by
strong common sense view which it
ibits, as the genuine pldloloaophy perling
it The women of Carolina, we
proud to say, arc singularly etempt
in the false vanity therein portrayed;
the evil does exist though it lie in a
ftlified degree. The lesson cannot be
strongly impressed, ut?on the minds
wives and mothers; that in being a
y, one need not cease to be (in the
e sense of the word ) a woman.
'It may bo only a fancy of ours,"
s Mrs. Kirkland, in one of her admile
essays, "that Providence has so delhIIv
fitted woman to^household cares,
t she is never truly and healthy hapwithout
them; but if it be a fancy,
a one which ninch observation has
ifirmed."
We commend these words to serious
isideration. The general bad health
females, in what arc called the rec
table classes, is a subject that we
o often refered to! for it is one that
cts not the happiness of familes mem
bnt the weal of the whole community;
the present generation only, but fu-/ |y
6 ones also, Physicians tell us that
one lady in ten, in a gret ciy, enjoys
ust health. Mrs. Kirkland, we sust,
has explained the eattse. It is cori
that women generally, who are not
ipelled to lal>or for a livelihood ditly,
neglect exercise almost entirely, and
ice bring on themselves dyspepsia,
vous disordera and otlier diseases. To
i>rm house-work is too frequently con- ^
?red degrading. Fv?n wlicrn the mothin
obeniance to the traditions of her
ith ixwidcaceiid^oecasionally to labor,
Hsiurhtor* siw ttmnirlii n? U ?
? ... ... jrcd
less, taking no bodily exercise -except
tof walking in fine weather, riding in
1 ioaed carragex, or dancing at a party,
oac, in short, who can affosd to hire
rants, cannot bemeaa thenwelres, as ,4
7 think by domeatie labors. \To
ike up a bed is regarded often
siwtincr bevond d<3WritkBttk>HnWn a
rpetis viewed ft* worse t^K And worte.
ft cane-ffekl: while ?ftlma!
xlefn femiabe hugoftgft, oopioua m it
hu no word* to ekftndUviae thi* >iuhum
and cruel uok. Aft result U, that
mob fine Indies loeff what little health
ay tUrUd life with, becoming fceMe in
act proportion u they become fififtfola.
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