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VOLUME III. LANCASTER, C. II., SOUTH CAROLINA, WEDNESDAY MOKNLNU, FEBRUARY 22, 1851 NUMBER 2.- :
THE LANCASTER I,KBCKR contained in those let- | lie felt anxious to Iuito Lis ntiviiiiim t ? ? 1 *
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8. 8. BAILEY, '
EDITOR AND PROPRIETOR
From the New York Herald. '
Beminisoenoea of the late J. C. Calhoun, j
BT UIS rRIVATl SECRETARY. 1
New York, Jan. 21, 1854. i
Mr Dear Sir?Since my conversation *
with you thin morning, the subject of it i
has unceasingly occupied my thoughts, t
You seemed so struck with what I told \
you were the solemn convictions ot Mr.
ChIIiouii but a few days previous to his t
death, as they appeared to my mind, that
I cheerfully comply w ith your request to 1
remember and place upon naper my re c
collections of ttiose days. lWore 1 pro- r
ceed, however, I must state a few facts to ?
which your own recollections must bear c
witness. You know that with a few in- ']
tennis*ions I was with Mr. Calhoun for a c
constant period of eleven uninterrupted
months. I joined hiui at his home in ii
Fort Hill early in the year 1849, and sen- v
rated from biin when his body left Washington
for the South after the close of his e
earthly career in 1850. My stay at Fort j
llill is fraught with the most pleasant and ?j
thrilling reminiscences of the great dead a
My main occupation from day to day, t
for several months, was in writing the s
work?" A Disquisition on Government, f
and a Discourse on the Constitution and a
Government of the United States," which c
has recently been published by D. Apple- v
ton <k Co., of this city, as volume one of s
the works of Calhoun, edited bv my per- t
aoual friend, Richard K. Cralle, one of f
the ablest men in the South, and one of s
those that Mr. Calhoun honored with his t
confidence for many years. Several hours i'i
each day 1 was engaged with him upon it
this interesting work. It ws? during this u
Jtcriod that 1 received a request from you e
to this effect: "NoIkmIv knows ai y hing t
uuoutMr. V?lU??uii, v?herc-l,? u
lie live*. wli.it lie says and does at home, a
The American people know all alMjut the 1
liabita of Webster and Clay, hut nothing t
about Mr. Calhoun. I w ml.I like to know y
all about those things, and get Irs opinion v
on a variety of subject*. The public know v
nothing aliout him except when !.? is
Iteord from in some great State patter, or v
in a Senate debate." Of cmunc I allowed
this letter to Mr. Calhoun, and it le ! to a a
very singular result. Mr. Calhoun lieaila- u
ted a in niieiil and then said, in his pleas- u
ant vein, "There is but little known aliout a
iny place or home habits. Mr. Bennett c
has been a very sincere and devoted friend 11
of the South ; I would tie pleased to oblige it
him in any way. You may write him a
some private letters about inc if you choose ii
to do so." 11
"but, Mr. Calhoun, it is quite evident c
that M.. Bennett wants to have some- r
thing about Fort ilill and you that he f
can publish." ii
"Well, you may write him a letter to v
publish, but sign some name to it that c
will not let people suppose you wrote it." s!
I did write, and sent vou the letter which p
appeared in thj Herald, beaded "A Visit h
to Fort Hill," and signed, "A Traveller." d
But I have to tell VOU some thinmi still ?
more singular, and which were unknown li
to you until now. Carrying out your a
wishes, I would often, while with liiiu in ^
bis little study, take pen and paper, and, 11
after calling his attention to a particular k
subject, would write it in the forin of an o
editorial, lie would read the article in o
manuscript, and band it back to rac, with
the ^mark, "Theme are my ideas. You 1
hare them in a rery exact and concise n
form." Those articles I enclosed to you a
without remark, and if you refer to tile* it
of the Herald, your leader on Friday, 1
Jsly 27, 1840, headed "The Kumpeau n
News," was really Mr. Calhoun'*, as well t
ss nauy other editorials that afterward* ii
appeared in the liurald?such as "I'?wi ii
lion of the North and South," "Ohjec.* of Ii
the Administraiioii," "Acteon and his I
iioumiK," "OiSo-iwhjkjiJg and it* Mi.vsion, y
What is to he d- ne al.ont it" "Mann- t
facture* of the North." When the Ilrr- (
aid reached Fort Hill, ho of course roio-i - ?
Iced them. On oii? occasion he said to d
roe, "Ha* Mr. Dennett nn idea how these d
articles originate I" a
"Not the slightest," was mv truthful
reply, "lie probably ?up|?*cm Italic with b
you about matter* and thing* in general, and
that these conversations had suggest- c
od the articles." About that liino you re- ii
eeivel from me a great mnnv private let- t
tors giving you Mr. Calhoun's views nImui t
men aud measures. I read him thore lett t
tern, and before 1 sent the first one, he c
made me <40 up stairs and add a post- f
script which, ns near as I can recollect, j
was as follows: "Tell Mr. Dennett that *
my private opinions ahout men and mat- i
ten are not to be used by him in any way r
publicly while I am alive, after I ain dead \
ne may make them public." The words c
made an hnpression ujn>n my mind and I 1
wrote r<?u as he desired. I was a little 1
startled about a year aforwariia, when a
seated iu the room in which be died, hie \
t-J- - -' ?.-?u 1
Jpv ? *mm ""wiw vim* near mm, 10 una i
In a cop of the Herald of the day |?rovi- <
owa, which ?m handed me by hi* eon, i
largo eiiracta frotn theae identical leitera i
attached, lie wae dead, hot a great many i
L M
k '?. .? -JA. 3?at ** flgtoi n,'^ Vifr" W. Jltffc
bcio miii extracts.
But I haveuot yet done with this preface.
Previous to my leaving New York, at 1
Mr. Calhoun's written request to go to
liim in the South, an authorized person I
*sked me while away to write some let- I
Lers about the South for the Times, in |
London. I thought nothing more of the t
matter unti1 I had been at Fort Hill a t
month or more. Mr. Calhoun and ray- i
?elf were in a wagon, coming front the ]
tillage of Pendleton, when 1 mentioned I
,he circumstance. "Why dont you do it 1" t
>vas his sudden comment. 1
"Well, why should I } I don't know j
vho would pay me for my trouble." I
"Pay you J" was his rather sarcastic t
tint. "Pay, why it would give you an i
>pj?ortiinity of laying before the world the *
eal position of the South?the real ad- (
'antage that Europe would possess in a i
lirect trade with us, and the London ?
Times would publis . what you write," he t
mntinued. c
"Unquestionably they would. The party s
it New York was authorized to get me to i
vrito them." j
"Then do you do it at once. Why, j
iven VOlir frinnrt Mr n
-- j ...v.v. m.>. j/vuucii. uarc villi
mblish, in Now York, the probable future
?t the Suut; unconnected with the North,
is I see it now, ami as all will see it within
wonty years." Every day I wrote on a
erics of letters, 1 wrote on a half sheet of
oolscup turne<l down?and half I wrote,
unl every night lie read them and made ,
orrectioiiH opposite. When I sometimes
vould hesitate at what to me appeared
ueb novel ideas as direct intercourse beween
Europe and the South, I have seen
dm shake his lieud gloomily and as if
peaking to himself?"It will come so evenually.
I see it. Corruption, unjust and
inparlial legislation of a tiorlliein major
Ly; the slow, sure ami steady increase
f the liberty feeling in the N??rt11, will
ventuall v open the eyes of the South, and
lien they will see I was rio|,t. The exiteuvc
"! tile South will depend upon a
epnratioii, and (In n the Smith will reaeli
ler true |Hi-itioii." The rough draft of
bene letters was finished, ami I hold them
et. I had n?? time to copy thein he-ore
vo went to Washington ami onec only
rere they allmled to in tho sick rooin.
Ki-en thein carefully," said Mr. C., "you
rill hud use for llieui at some future day."
He knew thai I frequently made notes
f conversations with him. He used to
nakc me read them to him, and on one
evasion, as if seeing into the future, he
aid to me:?"Ho sure that you perfectly
omprehend my idea, when you take a
iota of it, and if you have any doubt about
L, ask me, and never publish anything
liout me that you are not perfectly clear
i your own mimt that you understand
ic." Since his death these words have
omc hack vividly to my mind, and I have
eligiouslv adhered to thein. I now come r
i> mo nine wuen we uoin readied wash- !(
igton, and from personal intercourse t
rliicli you yourself have witnessed, you j:
an safely vouch that the impression 1 j
hall give of his own mind, I had the op- v
ortunity of ascertaining as no one else (|
ad, or could possibly have had. ltut a v
ay liefore he died ho told me that he
'oilId give a world could he have but one a
luiir of strength in the United States Sen- .
te, so clear was his vision into the future. *
Vhat he did say or think, I wrote, and
auch that lie would have written was
nown to me only, owing to circumstaum
controlled by the sick and dying scene
f his life. ii
It was about the loth of February, g
860, that it liecanae evident to bis own I
aind that it was doubtful whether lie t
liould deliver a speech in the Senate, and 1
. was then he determined to write it. ?
fou rememlier that when I went to Uich- ?
iiond with Gen. Taylor to see him lay f
he corner-stone of the Monument to Wash- t
igton, on iny return, early on Sunday r
uorniug, I met a messenger who was e
Hinting for me, who stated that Mr. Cal- t
iouii was very anxious to have me come '
ip home as soon as J got ashore from ihe f
>oat. When I reached the room of Mr. i
'ullioun, lie told ine that lie did- not feel ?
roll, and wanted to commence that verv
lay with tho njiWi'li. lie did commence ;
licuuing it tliHt cvuiiing; I sat on one aide "
f tho table ami he on the other. <
lie tu'ntnrncrl, and 1 wr te, MI have
eticved, from the first, that the agitation i
?hero ho stooped, and, rising 'rein his f
hair, said, "'lhis won't do, I must inmg- t
ne tliat the Senators are around me." lie
railed across tiie room once or twice, and
hen came back to the table; (I noticed <
hat his eye* were closed; and theo hi ?
ommenced?"I have, Senators, believed i
rotn the first that tho agitation of the sub- 4
ect of slavery would, if not prevented by 1
ponio timely and effective measures, end 1
u disunion;" and continued dictating for *
icarly an hour, until he was tired, for he I
*Kft very weak ; and during th ?j Mrenl ?
lay* that he wok dictating that apecch to I
lie, he would cough to aevrrelv fir a pe- t
iod of a quarter of an hour, that I feared 1
MMiMtime* he would strangle. Yet when i
rieitora called he aeemed to control three
iposm*. It surprised ine oo that I once
vilU'd hie attention to it. He aniilcd and
Mid, "A man that canuot control ImboJy t
u well aa hia mind i? not fit to live." I <
u-h J to tend to him all the paper* every i
lay, and ao engrossed woe hie mind upon I
the great topic* before the country, that
e*I to other suhjetts.
I have road poetry, piosc and stories to
him when we were alone, at hi* request,
lor this special purpose, but frequently it
would hoof no use; his mind would go
hack to the critical institutions in which
lie believed the interests of the South were
perilled. 1 could not begin to remember
the details of his conversation. At that
time, and in his room, I wrote the "Patrick
Henry" letters which appeared in the
llsrald, and read most of them to him l?e*
roro they were sent. In fact, they necessarily
embodied some of his sentiments.
How could it have been otherwise ! Hut
ibove all details, I can remember that
.here was one all pervading sentiment a* i
.o the utter and entire u*e!essuiss of com
jromi.se. lie scouted the very word. He
kaid the South had no compromise to offer,
and that unless the constitution was
intended by introducing into it new dailies
to protect the South against the coninual
invasion of tho North, there never
:ouid be peace and quiet between the two
kections; that there would be year after
rear more and more nuncio agitations,
ind that it would be belter for the States
K-accably to dissolve at once. People
'.ailed, and lie would talk with tliem or
islen and when they were gone, he would
hake his head, and in reference to a sueessful
settlement of the pending Oalifortia
controversy, would say, "It is all use
ess."
1 look forward with the deepest forebolings
to ilie future. The South?the men
>t the South ?don't see their real position.
I here is nothing gained by a temporary
olicy. Something must be done to reach
he root of the evil. I see it, and the
h>uth will see it ii: a few years. I have
10 hope from the generosity or justice of
ho North. Tliere are some good and
rue men there, but in a few years they
lili be al<sorbed in the one all pervading
eutiuienl which is gaining ground rap
Jly. In ten years tbeeutiru North will
?e abohlioirzed. The love of plunder and
tower fur the sake of otthe will absorb all
ustice and right between the sections.
L'his same spirit will grow in the South,
readers in the South will go baud in glove
villi the North for ollice and plunder.
Cven in my own State there will lie found
lieu as e g? r for spoils and oflicc from the
general government as from any other
hate. 1 feel gloomy when i look at the
uture. My path might have been a very
aisy one, bad 1 ?o chosen, but 1 have purued
the right over a rugged road. It
nay bo but a few years belore the South
t ill be trampled upon, invaded, enslaved,
lid destroyed bv uuc> nslitutional exneioii
ami oppression, l inn the South will
ise to one man. Then she will fully unlersiand
me."
1 hoe are sentiments i hat filled his mind
llitil he died. Could he have lived only
jur years, lie would have seen with sorow
these political leaders in his own State
is great lickspittles to the throne l'residenial
|?owers as in any other, lie would
lave seen his prophecy nearly fulfilled.
Iu would have seen a 1'resident in p jwor,
rrapped iu a freo soil robe, one of the
rioiialers w ho put afloat the Wilmnt proiso.
lie would have seen abolitionists
lid democrats band in glove to place such
i man in power. He would have seen in
tower as l'rimo Minister Marcy,ainan bo
nice held up to scorn in the following language
on the floor of the Senate:
July 0, 1837.
I then undertook to show that it would
uerease, vas:ly increase, the power of the
[overnincnt if they chose to exercise this
latronaire for nolitical imrcoses- That
hey would no use it wo had ample proof
n the past conduct of the administration,
iiid in the principles which had heen
vowed hy his friends, A former Senator
rom New York, high in the conti h-ncc ol
l.o party, (Gov. Marry,) and now chief
iiagistrate of that State, lord openly avow:d
in his place on this floor that to the vieon*
lielotig the Rjroils, for which lie was
cprirnnndod at the lime bv the Senator
rom Massachusetts, (Mr. Webster,) in a
uanncr worthy of ins distinguished tai- ,
lilts.
I can fancy the profound grief, as well
is horror, with which Mr. Calhoun would
n'O Governor Marcy regulating the atl'uirs
if this government. There wns another
nan front New York that he regarded
sith perfect abhorrence. It was Senator
4-ward, lie was at the Senate for a short
ime when Seward spoke, and ho would
lot listen ton word.
But ft few day* before ho died, he rc:eiv?*l
a letter, which we insert. It made
i profound impression ii|>oii him. "What
tn unfortunate thing," said Mr. Calhoun,
'that Southern men are so blind?hut ere
nany years they w ill see tliein as I do
low." "Mr. Pillllilln* ?K.1?
^ewnrd rightly." "Mr. Paulding ought to
mow Northern sentiment. I even doubt
nvsclf whether even n constitutional
intendment could protect the South against
he arbitrary will of a Northern majority
when once aholiiinnimt gets full strength,
it it inust and will in that rcction."
Livbc Pahk, Dntchoas Co., >
March 10, lt50. )
My Dear Sir :?I have received and
read your spe.vh with the deepest interest
; it traces the present erisi.a to its
iour<6 and pointtout the moans of avoid
ing it* consequences with perfect clear
neat, without deviation and without pas?
flK
muu. 11 appeals to our reasons uikI ask3
j only justice. It will uot, perhaps, be so
much prized as some others ; Hut hereafter,
when its predictions shall be fulfilled
?and I foresee that they will be ere long,
unless the spirit of fanaticism is effectually
checked in its career?you will be quoled
as one who foretold the danger and
pointed out the only means by which it
could bo avoided. I had proposed to publish
a pamphlet on the same subject
but could find no publisher. The literary,
as well as the political press is equally enthralled
in the North.
If you will permit me I will suggest to
you a doubt of the policy as well as cfli
cieney of the guaranties you propose for
the future safety ot the south, which will
he equally denounced w ith the constitution
as "violntiou of the laws of God and
the rights of nature," by the fanatics.
They will bo but burnt flax in their fiery
furnace. 1 mention this because it would
seem that several of the representatives of
the South arc not prepared to go with
you to that extent, and, as I formerly
slated, 1 think "unanimity of the last consequence
to the South.' It astonishes
me to see the distinction of parties still
kept up in that quarter, and that when
such tnonsterous interests arc at stake,
instead of embarking to a man in one
bottom, each one seizes his own plank,
and paddles away in different directions.
I cannot express the contempt and disgust
wiili which I have read the speech of
our Senator Seward, though it is just what
I had expected from him. He is one of
tll?? mrwt iluiiirnrriiia incmvlj ?...?
... iu^vvw mm UVtT
crawlwl about in the political atmosphere,
for lie is held in such utter contempt by
all honest men, that no notice is taken of
liini until his sting is felt. He is only
qualified to play the most despicable parts
in the political drama, and the only jiossible
way he can acquire distinction, is by
becoming the tool of greater scoundrals
than himself. Some years ago, after disgusting
the State of New-York as chief
magistrate, be touud his level in the lowest
depths of insiur-dftcsuce and oblivion
and was dropped by his own party. Hut
the mud has been lately stirred at the very
bottom of the pool, and he who went down
a slimy tad pole has come up a lull-grown
bull-frog more noisy and impudent than
ever. This is very often the case among
us here, when nothing is more common
than to see a swindling rogue, nfter his
crimes have heen a little rusted by time,
suddenly become an object of popular fafor
or executive patronage. The position
taken and the principles asserted by this
pettifoggering rogue to his speech would
disgrace any man?but himself.
1 begin to fear that it will not bo long
before we of the North become the tools
of the descendants of the old Puritans,
who bad not the most remote idea of the
principles of civil liberty, with no conception
of religious toleration, but the most
unrelenting intolerance. The despotism
of the parsons is taking the place of that
the kings and the gown and the petticoat
have conspired to usurp the breeches,
our freedom is in great danger of being
sacrificed to the texts of Scripture and
fanatical dogmas. The twelve tables are
becoming our law, and we shall be obliged
to study the commands of Leviticus.
1 fear, too, you will be tempted to trespass
too much on your strength in de
fending yourself front your foes and your
friends. Let me beg of you to bear in
mind that at your age and mine, nature
is not often strong enough to make
more than one rally, and thatnny successive
effort is productive, not of vigor but
ovliouithrtn ttoinfmtlwtr that its oil
J??bability
th? future will require your exertions,
as well a* the present. I rejoice to
hear ilio favorable opinion of *'our physi
cian. Don't ta?k yourself to reply. I
am, dear sir, yours, very truly,
J. K. PAULDING.
Fkef. DkveiAiweiit or Mas.?If where
to express in a line what constitutes the glory
of a state, I should say it is the free
and fall derflovmint nf human nature.?
That country is the happiest and noblest
whose institution and circumstance irive the
largest range of action to the hu nan power*
as affection, and call forth tnun in nil the variety
of his f cullies and feelings. That is the
happiest country where there is most intclligenc
and freedom of thought most nfTection
r-nd love, most imagination and taste, most,
industry and enterprise most public spirit
most domestic virtue, mosteoiisvieneo, most
piety. Wealth is good only as it is the
production and proof of the vigorous exercise
of man's powers, and is a means of
bringing out his affections and enlarging his
faculties. Man is the only glory of his
counta'y: and it is the advancement and unfolding
of human nature which is the true
iniamsf o f n bl-ifo __/)/* ( 'h/I M ?1 i ti tr
A Tuouoiit iok Voujto Mkn.?There
is no wreck so shocking lo behold, a*
titht of h dissolute young man. On the
person of a debauched inebriate, infamy
is written. How Nature hangs label* over
him, to testify her disgust at hit example.
How she loosen* all his joii ta, sends tremors
along hi* muscles, and bends forward
his frame! Tho wreteh whose life-long
pleasure it has been to debase himself,
and to debauch others, whose heart lias
been spotted with sin so that it is black all
over, is an offence to the heart of the
unblemished.
"Hallo* mister! got grain to sel! f
"No. Why do yon ask!"
" liekass I see you're a wry face !*
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AUTOBIOGRAPHY of an ACTRES!
Mrs. Mowatt, in lier "Autobiography
an Actress," gives a lively account of In
dtbut:
"Tin? day of my tlrbut was fixed,
was in the month of June, 181.''. I ha
three weeks only for preparation, luce
sant study, training?discipline of a kin
with which the actor alone can appreciat
wore indispensable to perfect success,
took fencing lessons, to gain firmness <
position and freedom of limb. I use
dumb bells, to overcome tho constitutioi
al weakness of my arms r.nd chest. I e;
ercised my voice during four hours ever
day, to increase its power. 1 wore a vo
uminous train for as many hours dail;
to learn flu> irfnoofiil
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queenly or classic robes. The ?1 ny befoi
my debut it was necessary that I shoul
rehearse with the company. I found th
a severer ordeal than performing befoi
the public. There is always a half mal
cious curiosity amongst actors to witne*
the short comings of a novico. They ir
variably experience strt ng inclinations t
prophecy failure. No wonder; for the
know best the nice subtleties of their ow
art?the unexpected barriers that start u
between the neophyte and his goal.
Only those actors who are engaged i
the scene rehearsed are permitted to occi
py the stage. The play was the Lady <
Lyons. Mrs. Vernon, as Madame Dei
chappelles and I, as Pauline, took ov
seats to open the first scone. The actoi
crowded around the wings, eager to pa>
judgement on the trembling debntante.Tlie
stage manager, seated at his tabl<
scanned her with cold and serutinizin
eyes. The pale prompter laid his boo
upon bis knee, that he might stare at he
more deliberately. Even the sleepy lil
tl3 call boy, regardless of the summons i
his hand, put on the sapient look and al
titudc of of a critic.
' If I could but shut out all these eyes,
I saltl to myself. Hut, turn wlmtevt
way I would, they met; hemmed mo i
on all sides?girdled me with freezing it
flucnces.
After we had taken our seats, tliei
was a moment of awful silence. It w:
broken bv Mr. Barry's digniti d, (lie w:
alarmingly dignified,) "commence if yo
please." Mrs. Vernon spoke the fin
lint s of the plav, I replied. I cannot tc
why, but the sound of my own voice, di
tinct and untremu!ou?, re assured me.Tho
Rubicon was passed. I thought i
more of the surrounding eyes, so full i
"speculation*'?of the covert ill-wishesof
lite secret condemnations. I gave in
sell up to the part, and acted with ull tl
abinaoH and intensity of which I was ci
pable.
During the rehearsal of the third ac
I U'Uvi ufurflml Kti u au-1/l..n !??% ? ^ "
plausc. It cauio from a crowd of aeto
at th? side scenes?an involuntary an
most unusual tribute. To say that it pr
duced no elfect upon ine would be affect
tion. For a moment my equanimity wj
pie usttrably destroyed. I bad tast<
the first diop in the honeyed cup of su
cess.
"Go on, if you please?go on," sai
Mrs. Barry, noticing the pause?and
went on.
The play continued and ended witlioi
further interruption. When it was ove
the company gathered around me nit
tokens of undisguised interest. Fro!
many lips 1 received the delightful assi
surance that, if I was not frightened t
night, I should achieve a groat triumph.
"I shall not be frightened," I auswcrc
confidently.
"Not he frightened!" reiterated M
Skt-rrvf, (at that time tho low couiedia
of the l'.trk Theatre,) "don't lay any sue
fluttering unction to your soul. Who
night comes you will be frightened ha
out of your senses?you don't know win
atatjt Jri'jht it /"
"1 have a talisman to keep off stag
fright?the motive that brings mo on tli
stage."
"We shall see!" was his increduloi
answer.
None hut actors can thoroughly co i
prehend the meaning of the apaliiu
" .1- ..!?1.?
infill, tiiu llllfllfc-IIIWV
the profession?a sensation of try tern
to which no language can give adeqiia
utterance. I have seen veteran acto
who ha<l studied soldo new character in
til every sylable of tlic author seemed i
delibly written on their brains?who hti
rehearsed their parts with the most tellir
enthusiasm?who gloiicd in the prospc
of making a "hit"?at la?t, when nigl
came, and they stood before the foe
lights to embody the ideal creation f
the first time. I have seen them sciz<
with a sudden tremor?their utleran
choked?their eyes rolling a)>out, or fixi
on vacancy?their limits shaking and e?
rv faculty paralysed.
1 was not initiated into the horors
"stage fright" on the first night of n
performance. But 'ho dramatic incub
visited me in its worst form on an equal
important occasion. Nor was the attA
the sole one in my professional life. I
what magic the demon can be exerciM
remains an undiscovered mm tore
The morning of my debut wh* p*M
with my ai?ter?. Scarcely en altuai
was madn lo the trying event* whi
must take place that evening. The ri
appnrel apread out upon the bed, rw?
%
g- | 0(1 its finishing touching at their hands, I a
- am 1 was consecrated l?y a few silent tears. ' u
One of my sisters only, Julia, the young- b
ur est, had courage to be present when that f<
attire was worn. tl
My costume was chosen by Mrs. Ver w
not), almost the first actress with whom I v<
becaino acquainted, a lady highly resnec- ol
ted and beloved in the profession, ller n<
d j name and that of her relatives have done pi
honor to the stage for a long series of ai
I years.
&f As we drove to the theatre last niglr., T
the carriage passed my father's house, n
i* There was a group at the window watch- d
c" ing for us. Handkerchiefs waved as long
v as we were in sight. h
1' 1 cannot help wondering w hat sort of n
)'i a place the world in general imagines the
"star dressing-room" to be. In the days b
"o of my nescience I presumed that it was e<
<1 a sort of a boudoir, prettily and comfortnis
bly furnished,to which the princesses of the it
stage retired to take their luxurious ease.
* But O, the difference I The "star dress- g
M ing-rooin" is usually a closet like apart*
' meat with a few strips of well-woorn hi
? baize or carpet on the floor. A rude tli
y wooden shelf runs along one side of the ai
n wall, and serves as a dressing-table. A d;
P dingy looking glass, a counle of suneran- se
minted chairs,a ricketty wash-stand, these V
n are, generally speaking, the riches luxuries si
'* of the locality. Such was the "star dress- I
ing-rootn" to which I v.aa introduced at pi
*" the Park Theatre. Mr. Mo watt's request ci
ir obtained for ine a lilliputiau sofa, so panic- lii
^ ularly hard that it was at once recognised tl
iS a?theatrical "property"?a thing of sham te
~ designed for the deception of an audience. e<
?? I believe oven she demand for this delu- T
sive accessory to comfort was considered to
k very unreasonable.
'r I was just dressed when there canto a hi
slight tap upon tho door, accompanied e?
II by the words, "Pauline you are called." tl
>" I opened the door. The call boy stood tc
without?the inseparable long strip of pa- M
per between his fingers. I enquire I who ci
r' l?o wanted. w
n "You, ma'am; y?u are called I" d
l* "What a singular piece of familiarity I" U
I thought to myself. "It is 1 whom he is 1;
re addressing as 'Pauline!' " I did not sus- d
ls pect it was customary to call the perfor- p
w titers by the names of the characters they
III assumed. a
"Called for what ?" I inquired, in a li
manner that was intended to impress >
s" upon the daring offender a sense of the t
? respect duo to me. I
10 "Kor what I" he retorted, prolonging the f
what widi an indescribable humorous cm- j
~ phasis, and thrusting his tongue against t
V* liis cheek, "why, for the stage,-to be sure, u
,e Thai's what 1" i
,l" "(Jh!" was all I couhl say ; and ilu h
little urchin ran down stairs, smothering o
his laughter. Its echo, however, reached b
I'* me front the green room, where after nia- b
rs king his "call," he had probably related 1
my unsophisticated inquiry. tl
At that moment Mr. Nlowntt came to li
** conduct me to the stage. Mrs. Vernon, v
iS who played my mother, was already seat- c
0 ed at a small table in Madame Peschap- c
c" elles' drawing room, I took my place on v
the sofa opposite to her, holding in my a
'' band a magnificent bouquet, Claude's tl
1 supposed offering to Pauline. a
After a few whispered words of en- k
couragement, Mr. Mowatt left me, to wit- I
r' ness the performance from the front of the g
house. Somebody spread my Pauline l?
11 scarfe on the chair beside me. Some- d
I body else arranged the folds of my train tl
II symmetrically. Somebody's lingers gath- tl
ered into their place a few stray curls.? v
'I The stage manager gave the order of o
"clear die stage, ladies and gentlemen,"
r- and 1 heard sound the little bell for the
" raising of the curtain. il
I' Until that moment 1 do not think u ii
n pulse in my fratno had quickened its beat- tl
n I ing. Hut then I was seized with a at!-. tl
d ' lliug sensation, a-> tliongh I were choking, i
I could only gasp out, " Not yet?1 can- i h
I" not!" * j p
Of coarse, thero was general confusion. | a
Manager*, actors, prompters, all rushed . o
w j on llio stage ; somu offered water, some j o
scent bottles, some fanned inc. Every- I <|
i- Itody seemed prepared to witness a faint- 1
ig I nig tit, or an attack of histories, or some- v
ol thing equaMy ridiculous. I was arguing J
?f with myself the ahsurdity of this ungovt<!
crnable emotion?this humiliating cxltibi- f<
rs tlon; and making a desperate endeavor t
n- to regain my self-possession, when Mr. Ii
a- Skerrot thrust his comic face over vane- n
id body's shoulder, lie looked at me with a
ig an expression of quizzical exultation, and c
ct exclaimed ;
lit "Didn't I tell you so! Where's all *
>t- the courage, ch !" J
i?r The words recalled my (roast of the
#d morning; or rattior, they reralled the ^
ce recollections u|H)n which that boast was ^
I'd founded. My composure returned as (
e- rapidly as it bad departed. 1 laughed ,
at my own weakness,
of "Are you getting better!'' kindly en- <
iv quired the stage manager. i
US ''Let lliO Mirtsin cit*" ? il.? i
..^V, t* ma IIIC B141IV
Ijr factory answer.
ck Mr. Barry clapped his hands, a signal
ty for the stage to be vacated,.?the crow d
id, at onoe disappeared. Madame Descltspellea
and Pauline sat alone, as beft>ro.
ed The tinkling bell of warning rang, and
on the curtain slowly ascended, disclosing
ich first the foot lights, then the ocean of
ich heads beyond them in the pit. then the
ir- brilliant array of ladies in the foxes, tier
-jsp
for tier, and finally the thronged galler;s.
I found those footlights an invaluale
aid to the necessary allusion. They
>rmcd a dazzling barrier, that separated
10 spectator from the ideal world in
hich the actor dwelt. Their glare preen'.ed
the eye from being distracted by
hjucts without the precincts of that lumious
semicircle. They were a friendly
rotoction, a warm comfort, and idealizing
uxiliary.
The debutante was greeted warmly.?'
his was but a matter-of-course coinplilent
paid by a New York audience to the
augtitcr of a well know citizen.
"How ! bow 1" whispered a voice from'
eliind the scenes. And I obediently bent
if head.
"liow to your right 1" said the Voice,"
etween the intervals of applause. I bowJ
to the right.
"Bow to the left!" 1 bowed to tho
ft.
"Bow again 1" I bowed again and aain,
while the noisy welcome lasted.
The play commenced, and, with the
rst words I uttered I concentrated my
loughts, and tried to forget that I had
ly existence save that of the scornful lay
of Lyons. When we roso from our
sats and approached the footlights, Mrs.
ernon gave my hand a reassuring preslre.
It was a kindness scarcely needed,
had lost all sensation of alarm. The
lay progressed as smoothly as it had
nnmcnced In the third act, where Panne
first discovers the treachery of Claude,
le powers of an actress begin to bo teaid.
Every point told and was reward1
with an inspiring burst of applause.?
he audience had determined to blow in
i a flauie the faintest spark of merit.
In the fourth act, I became greatly exlusted
with the unusual excitement and
tertion. There seemed a probability
uit I would not have physical strength
> enable me to finish the performance.?
Irs. Vernon has oHen laughingly remind1
me how she shook and pinched me
hen I win Ijing, to all appearances tenerly
clasped in her arm*. She mainkius
that, by these means, she constantf
roused me to consciousness. I am her
ebtor for the friendly pinches and oplortune
shakes.
In the fifi.li act, Pauline's emotion are
I! of calm and abject grief?the faint,
mpclcss struggling* of a broken heart.
'ly very weariness aided the personaion.
The pallor of excessive fatigue,
he worn out look, tottering walk, and
L-eble voice suited Pauline's deep des>air.
Tlie audience atlrbuted to an acor's
consummate skill that which was
iicrely a painful and acciilental reality.
'he play ended, the curtain fell. It would
o impossible to describe my sensations
f relief as 1 watched that welcome screen
iize slowly unrolling itself and dropping
etweeu the audience and the stage.?
'hen came the call before the curtain?
lie crossing the stage in front of the footghts.
Mr. C led me out. The
diole house rose, even the ladiss,?a
oinplimciit seldom paid. I think it raind
tlowers; for bompiets, wreaths of ailer,
and wreaths of laurel fell in showers
round us. Cheer followed cheer, as %
hey were gathered up and laid in ray
rms. The hats of getiti.-meu and handerchTcfs
of ladies waved on every side,
courtesied my thanks and the welcome
reel) curtain once more shut out the
rilliant assemblage. Then came the'
eeper, truer sense of thaukfulnee. The
rial was over ; the debutante had stood
lie test; she had not mistaken the course
hicli had been clearly pointed out as the
ue for which she was destined.
C.NCOCKAOEMKNT FOR 1'PNCTVAl 1*ATs*o
Scnscuirki<8.?The following local
Hdenl furnishes a forcible illustration of
ic* rewards of honest subscribers even in
lis life.
A young man who was desirous of
orrowing a sum of money for the purose
of cotmnecitig business, applied to
n old (gentleman for the loan of it. The
Id gentleman, with a remarkable degree
f judgment and sagacity, replied by en*
uiring if ho subscribed for a newspaper,
he re;dy was that he did subscribe for n
ery excellent newspaper?tho "E
J ."
In tl.e moan time the old gentleman
mud the moans of satisfying himself that
lie applicant for tho money had paid up
lis newspaper hill punctually, and the
icxt time the latter called, he politely,
ske.l him to sit down, and said in an eftouraging
tone.
"You can have the money, Sir, on your
tote." Hereby hangs a tale, a moral.?
Vcenimj New*.
"My Comsciescb!" ?Mrs. Fragcr,of 8t#rk
bounty, O., last week gave birth to three
>oys. two of which lived. She has preaentul
hor husband with six children withiti a
tear I?fir.
Sevi ml vi'iira since wa learn from ? ?-.
jonbted authority,a Indy ofthU town (Portsmouth,
Vn..) prvwnM lirt huibitml with 1
children in ten month*. In the fimt inatnncn
four, end in ten months thereafter thro#
inor*. Portsmouth I* a gre.it jdueu fur ba*
Itiro.?Cf/.4r, m m
*< molality Ihi our only liajijunoM
we ought to entry the bru ee; fur instinct / ;
is ft sour, shorter, fWtfcrtfuiiln to such happitioM
than roa*o???Col ton.
?3r IFiwOrtf?Ah bride who ?
willing to begin hou?kne}?i|>x in the ftfttn*
fMyle iti which Iter f?9MtU began.
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